Dreading

Blogging is supposed to be my writing exercice, but I'm finding myself dreading it. I now exist in a survival mode reality. I haven't been able to tap into what I truly feel very deep down inside, nor access my true thoughts, except for breif accidental moments. The magic of the fresh start of the year is wearing off, I feel am drowning already in the sea of noise, mundane people and routines and limited everything.