Homo sapiens

If you search the name, you would be overwhelmed by information. What I'm referring to, however, is for me, the best film ever made, ever! The maker is Nikolaus Geyrhalter. 

I watched it in the year 2016, towards the end of it, or maybe it was early 2017, few days before Chris traveled to Sweden. I was overcome by melancholia and nostalgia to begin with, but watching this film, gave me more satisfaction than I ever thought possible. Perhaps because it put highlight on these very sentiments within me. Like words describing what I never thought describable, recognizable...

I have always been drawn to abandoned places, not as an adult, but since ever, as a child. The feeling was always as though I didn't belong to this particular existence, but to older days, different space, different times, and in the longing for the unknown, wondering what was and how it ought to have been, there is consolation, of something that resembles more Home.

Years later, I realise that there is a name, and it's an actual thing; that sensitivity to certain sounds, that sensation it triggers in the mind and the body. It is called ASMR and it stands for autonomous sensory meridian reaction. I started to watch specific content made with this solely in mind. I later learned how to give myself this satisfying sensation through making my own videos... 

But that brings me to another topic too, intimicay. These are all things linked and intertwined for me. But more on that in another post, I feel so overwhelmed already.