I have been having an itch to write for a while, my laptop adaptor was broken and I only got a chance to replace it recently. Every time I think of my blog, I feel some kind of embarrassment. Every time I am on my blog, I feel like I should delete the previous posts, the ones before the last at least. I don't know what's normal and what's not, I do know that I could get very self conscious, and that it does stop me from expressing myself. I have an itch to write because it's another form of self expression, and as far as I can remember, I have always been perceiving life around me and its events, and wording them in my head. I am not a story teller, but I find great enjoyment in contemplating and capturing feelings, emotions, thoughts, capturing our reaction to the outside world, to our inner world. When I have this flood of emotions and ideas, say for jewelry, I don't dwell on them, I come rushing to my jewellery bench and I start creating and making and sketching. I don't try to dress my sketches up, I don't try to finish the pieces, I start. It is the same for me with writing. My English is mediocre, my style is poor, but it's ok, because I have the itch, and I need to write, and it is good, and it feels right, and even if I am going to be feel exposed, it is needed, because I am tired, tired of numbing.
