Vanter

I'm on my laptop using Blogger from desktop for the first time in a while.

I started my day before the sun today, right on time for the magic. 

I smoked some more. Little kitty meowed hard, I finished my cigarette and brought her outside on the balcony with me. On the first day I let her out with us on the floor, she tried to jump, scared the hell out of us, I never let her out without carrying her since. She's meowing a little more every new day, she's starting to ask for things, they're cute little sounds. She's communicating with us well, and she plays with us, her favorite is catch me if you can game. She jumps so fast and quick from one corner to the other, climbs so fast on everything and anything, and we chase her and sometimes too she hides. We haven't named her yet, many names suit her and her personality, but must we really? We will see. 

Yasmina just went out to harvest some wild sage, she discovered several bushes in her walk in the woods around the house. When I say house I really mean our compound, that ugly block of ugly tall buildings, with dirt, rubbish and ugly random everything. I am grateful to be here, with a bit of greenery and many quiet moments, but I can't help getting passionate about fixing things, bettering is a better word, bettering the world, sounds fitting. That sums up me in a lot of ways, a world bettering girl, in a very ugly part of the world. 

I could write essays about how much I dislike Lebanon, it simply isn't home, it never was. I have extremely vivid memories when I was 3 years old or so, and my very first encounters with the outside world, talk about ugly!  

The cat is climbing on my desk these days, getting more familiar with her surrounding, making it her home, and I was particularly fond of those moments she spent with me a couple of nights ago, as I worked alone in my office / workshop room, like I usually do. It felt less lonely, not that I could ever have humans with me when I'm working as such, but an animal, a pet!? did sound (look / feel) quite fitting. 

I have the boiler on since I got up, I was a night showerer my whole life, but lately I've turned into a morning showerer. Dictionary is correcting me for showerer, well I am going using it anyway! What I do miss however, is long days and nights of hibernating, not getting ready for anything at all, stretched hours of nothingness, attending to nothing and no one. I miss 2014 in particular, a year where I decided to take things easy, I read 50 books or so that year, probably 20% of what I've read my whole life then. 

Anyway, enough banter. I shall start my day already! Venting really, vanter, venter, banting, benting, vanting. (dictionary doesn't approve of any of those either, dictionaries are overrated.)