Friday, April 11, 2025

S.O.S

I cursed the curse that cursed you, 
This morning,
Mother!
Oh how I hate this existence that birthed your narcissism, my stuck in a loop with it, and all of the narcissistic men that moved me!
I cursed the milk you fed me,
I am still unsure you ever nursed me,
But I sure looked for that kind of affection from all the men that held me.
This reality has been crumbling for a while now,
I just wish I find the exist button soon,
To release myself once and for all.
I keep spiraling in and out;
One end has hope of healing and breaking the toxic patterns,
The other end takes me deeper into the rabbit hole.
I keep expanding and shrinking, 
So does my heart and mind,
And this achy body,
Which keeps craving physical affection like an orphaned infant.
I keep longing for the men to mother me,
And I keep mothering all those who dare to love me.

What else is there after all that has been said and done,
But a never healed, always open, damned mother wound!!!

Curse this reality...
Curse this realm...

God have mercy,
Please!
SOS!!!

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