I discovered Estas Tonne, I'm hooked.
Watching and listening to him play is doing beautiful things to my mind.
My heart is aching though, my soul is troubled.
Summers are always so very tiring... I'm exhausted, beyond words.
I need a cocoon, comfort, blankets, and softies.
I need soft everything, for a little while anyway.
I've been everywhere, doing everything. I need to pause, but the sun won't let me, summer days and nights are extreme. I need a little break from extreme everything, including my very own existence!
You know what happens when your only way of being is through forced resilience, out of a survival mode strategy? You lose touch with what you truly like / want / need. I've forgotten how to be at rest with things, situations, myself.
Though I'm not doing much today, my core is restless. My inner voice is screaming madly at me, it wants out, it wants to be seen, mirrored, touched.
Today I am sad. Being a full time mother can be crippling, and running a business even more so, and being all those things for all so many people is oh so draining!
I need Estas Tonne, like my need for breath of fresh air, and the end of summer.
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