Cease to plead

When the crying and screaming and the pleading doesn't get answered, when the echoes of the SOS sounds return back empty-handed, know that the salvation is near. That moment when the violated finally ceases to resist her rapist.

Find solace in the very giving up on hope, this hope that had turned into faith from desperation, then transformed into despair with the realizations. This very despair is your way out; the act of deconstructing the illusion of the possibility of ever being rescued. You can't lose anything if you've already lost everything. In the silence lies your true freedom. Surrender your body, you've conquered. Let it all be over and done with, stay put, sit still, quiet, and limp, like a corpse, like the soul of your rapist, let him finish, it's nearly over. Remain silent. 

Loosen hope, let go of attachments, smash your expectations. 

Despair is the new beginning in disguise. 

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When you've already reached the peak and height of the most agonizing pain you ever thought you could experience, anything from that point onward becomes a relief. 

Embrace your pain, lick your wounds, attend to your broken bones. Scrub your skin, touch it, caress it, feel your muscles, know how it hurts in each place, and where it hurts the most. Learn how it feels in your body for someone to betray their own soul, to disconnect from their heart, from source, to get off the designated path. 

The long dark nights, the grieving, and the collapse are your friends now. 

Put your million broken pieces together. 

Take all the time you need.

You will wake up a little bit more in your body every new morning from now on.

That was your rebirth. 

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